Happy new year 2020!
My first post in 2020 is, of course, my reflection of 2019. I would say that 2019 was so amazing! Many things happened; mostly the good ones 'cause I could achive my goal hashtags (re: my resolutions).
Let's Start!
I feel that I did nothing valuable in 2018, so I decided to list down my 2019's resolutions with 5 hashtags:
I wrote that on my laptop's note so it popped up whenever I used the laptop. It works! I was eager to put much effort, so I can tick on those lists.
I have achieved the first 3 hashtags (yay!), yet the last two points should be postponed to this year (maybe).
I'm so grateful because my biggest dream successfully came true. I get Australia Awards Scholarship (AAS) to pursue my Master's Degree. I will be studying Strategic Communications Management at Monash University, one of Australian Group of Eight univeristies. I got the scholarship at my second trial as I made this list as my top priority. I seriously focused on learning IELTS and wrote application essays which presents the truly me (I finished the essays in 2 months). It took a year for the application process until the departure preparation. I must follow many steps (two selection stages) and learning process (pre-departure briefing and documents verification). It's tiring, but I enjoyed all activities because I know that "this is my dream; no pain no gain!)
At the same time, in the early 2019, I was establishing a small service-based business; event planner and organizer (my second resolution was ticked, wohoo!) I started this project with my friends who have the same passion and goal with me - managing events and owning our own enterprise in the future. We named our company as Lolganizer because we believe that fun is the key of a successful event, so we will give the anti-mainstream idea and concept that align with clients' taste so all of us will have fun together. We strive to create the best day ever for our clients. It was very challenging at the first time as none of us ever experienced in business field. Therefore, our strategy was gathering many portfolios first by managing a private surprise event of our friend for free. This first portfolio, fortunately, gave out two new clients although we still charged them at lower price than market price. Hopefully, we can caught up the market price as the business becomes stronger and bigger in the future. Also, I find it difficult to build teamwork, so it turned out 3 members resigned from the project after ling discussion. I was really sad indeed, but my positive thinking said that the remaining team will be perfect - no drama anymore and we can focus to implement our business plan. Wish us luck :)
I never thought to invest my savings on any assets, meanwhile my friends had started to invest on property or trading. Then, I was triggered to have one also. I was planning to buy an apartment, but I did not have time to find the good one, so I changed the plan - I deposit my savings instead. I can get higher interest from the bank as I will not use my IDR money during my stay in Melbourne. So... my third resolution was counted, wasn't it? hahaha
Huf, I hate to talk about these two resolutions: get a boyfriend and solo travelling. I don't know why it's hard for me to do this... These resolutions were planned since two years ago, yet I always failed to achive this.
My romantic relationship is always complicated; I have to deal with my problems such as religion, age gap, and personality. Or maybe I have too high standard of ideal type... No idea, really.
I also cannot overcome my biggest fear, doing activities that must be fun if only done together with family or friends, like eating, travelling, or watching movies. You know, it's kinda pity to see someone or me doing the fun things alone. I once tried to watch movie at cinema by myself; it felt strange. I cannot talk to someone or discuss the movie after it's finished. That's why, I am impressed with those who love to do those activities alone.
Anw, my 2019 is not about my resolutions; I experienced ups and downs. Despite of my achievement and other happy moments (being bridesmaid of my best friend's wedding, volunteer in TEDxJakarta event, gaining high bonus for my good work performance, making new friend, etc.), I had to face many complicated drama. I was doing some company's projects at the same time as the AAS pre-dearture briefing. I loved to do that projects, but I could not stand rude attitude of my colleagues. Hmm, maybe I was too exhausted and emotional, so I was at my lowest point at that time; I just wanted to submit a resignation letter and quit from my job.
My feeling become worse when my father was dropped and hospitalized. I was panic and sad because it happened 2 months before I would fly to Melbourne. During my preparation of departure, I was still working full-time, take my father to the doctor for check-up routines. It's quite stressful, but I could still manage it (Sometimes, I feel proud of myself hahaha)
Well, all in all, I am really thankful for God's blessings. I know He was on my side everytime. The good things came at the right time, and the adversities I experienced were given by Him to make me stronger than before and evaluate myself. I realized that it's better for me to get scholarship now instead of last year as I have 2-year working experience (which will be very useful for my study later), small business (which is still running), and was able to accompany my dad at his unhealthy condition. Ah, I also believe that God still keep me from meeting my soulmate so I can focus on my dream and study...(?)
2019's life lesson: God never sleeps. He knows our plans and dreams. When we put the best effort to achieve them, God will give grant our wishes at the best timing :) #ResultNeverBetraysProcess
*typing 2020's goal hashtags....*